I walk

I walk down the street

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost...I am hopeless.

It isn't my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in the same place.

But, it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in...It's a habit.

My eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

I walk dow the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

This is much like my life.  I continually walked down the same road and got the same end result.  I fell into a deep hole filled with  a lot of pain, heartache and tears.  And finally I have come to realize I need to do things differently and do things through my Heavenly Father.  If I do all things through Him the heartache will not be so sever and there will be far less tears.  I will still have my share of trials and tribulations, because that is how we all learn and grown here on earth, but they won't be as hard as they would be without Him.  

I cannot believe it took me so long to figure all of this out.  How foolish I feel!  I guess maybe some of us need to learn the hard way?...I don't know.  I guess if I had followed Heavenly Father's plan from the get go I could have avoided a lot of my heartache...but I didn't.  And all I can say is I have learned a lot, and I have learned that I am strong and I am a survivor!  

I am just glad I am not on that road that has that deep hole in it anymore!