Time...lagging!

It is only Tuesday!!!!!  I have to wait till next Monday to get my sonogram!  Can the days go by any more slower!  All I can do is sit here and think about what the results will be!  It is hard to not think of the worse case scenario!  But, I am trying to stay positive...and think that this is nothing.  Another part of me is thinking it is going to be bad.  It's hard to stay calm sometimes...I let my imagination get the best of me...I let fear grip my heart.  Why can't time just hurry up and Monday come fast?  Well...not just Monday, but the 48 hours after that till I get the results!  All I can think about are my kids...they have gone through too much as it is, and then if something happens to me...I cannot even think about that right now.  I don't want to!  This is the most stressful thing I have gone through.  The adoption process was stressful, but this is a different stress...but it surpasses the adoption by a mile.  I don't know!  Oh my goodness...I am stressed out so much!  I can't even concentrate on school or anything!  I am so far behind in some of my classes...I am seriously thinking about dropping my classes and taking a semester off.  I am so burned out...I can't focus!

I know, I know I am being a big baby...I can't help what is going through my head!  Or even what is going through my heart...

The one thing that keeps going through my head is the song, "God be with you till me meet again."  I know dramatic right?!  UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  MONDAY JUST COME ALREADY!