Growing up in the church you sing the song; I love to see the temple...I NEVER thought I would be going there for myself. With the way I lived my life, I never thought I would be able to get it together to get there. I always wanted to go there...but never thought I was special enough...never thought I was good enough to go. It has taken me 35 years to realize that I don't have to be perfect to get there...I have to do my best...live righteously and want to do good in everything I do and in my life, I can get there!
1. I love to see the temple.
I’m going there someday
To feel the Holy Spirit,
To listen and to pray.
For the temple is a house of God,
A place of love and beauty.
I’ll prepare myself while I am young;
This is my sacred duty.
2. I love to see the temple.
I’ll go inside someday.
I’ll cov’nant with my Father;
I’ll promise to obey.
For the temple is a holy place
Where we are sealed together.
As a child of God, I’ve learned this truth:
A fam’ly is forever.
While I didn't prepare myself while I was young...I did have the desire to go there one day...and I finally made it! I finally had a Bishop who believed in me! I had my parents who also believed in me! I always had the desire deep in my heart...
The reason why it took me so long to get there was because I knew what a serious commitment it was to go there, and I didn't want to mess it up. I didn't want to go there and go back to my old ways...I wanted to make sure I was 100% ready to make that commitment and live the way I needed to in order to enter the Lords house.
Getting to this point wasn't easy. There was a lot of 2 steps forward and 5 steps back, and so on and so on...but the journey was worth it! I am here and I am happy!
When I first met with the Bishop about taking the Temple prep classes I told him I wanted to go slow because I knew how serious this was and I was taking it very seriously. So, he set up the lessons with an awesome couple in my ward and we were doing one lesson a week...after the first 2 weeks and lessons I had a feeling I needed to speed up the process. So, that is what we did. We started doing 2 lessons a week.
I felt my testimony grow in ways I never thought possible...I felt peace in my heart I never thought possible. I felt my parents being proud of my like never before. I was and still am experiencing things I have never before! And it is amazing! I wish I had come to this realization sooner, but I know I had to go through what I did for a reason, for whatever that reason is I don't know!
Now, the week before I went to the temple I started to feel anger...I was so angry at everything and everyone for no reason. I couldn't figure it out for the life of me why I was so angry. And, it wasn't just a irritable anger, it was a blood boiling don't talk to me anger. I remember talking to the Bishop about it and he told me that it was Satan trying to get me not to go to the temple and to do something stupid...to try and stay strong and keep praying. I remember going home thinking in my head that nothing was going to get in my way of going to the temple so Satan could try all he wanted but he wasn't going to win...he took up enough of my life and enough was enough! I was in control and I was not going to let him mess it up for me.
The day came for me to go...and things went smooth. I got up got ready and we got there on time. I was nervous...I kept thinking I was going to do something stupid and fall or fumble...just nervous. But, in the parking lot my mom said she never thought she would see the day that I would go to the temple. She had such a smile on her face...I have never seen her smile like that, she glowed she absolutely glowed.
Here I am on the way to the temple:
It was an amazing experience. I was so ready to be there...everything seemed so natural and because everything seemed natural is how I knew I was ready. Once I was there I felt as though I was home. I felt such peace in my heart...and sadness at the same time. Sadness because it took me 35 years to get there...and how many blessings I had been missing out on, how much peace I had been missing out on in my life. How much pain and agony I could have saved myself, how much love and comfort I could have felt. Like the Bishop told me, he doesn't know how I have gone this long without the temple in my life, and now that I have been twice I don't know how I went without it either. I have been missing out!
I am hungry to go as much as I can! I am anxious for the Gilbert temple to open its doors so I can go often. I hope to be a good example to my kids so they see the love that I have for the temple that they will have the same love for it and have the desire to go there too.
Here I am after I went through:
I feel like a changed woman! For the better! I love the temple just like the primary song says! I finally went there...next stop is getting my celestial mate! :)
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